Like everyone, that day will be remembered by where we were when the world stop turning as Alan Jackson so appropriately captured. I was newly widowed, only 16 months previously and the heartache of the day was like reliving my past. All I wanted if the world was coming to an end were my two daughters back in the safety of my own home.
Since then, HOME has comforted me as I spent hours on the chat rooms consoling widows from 9/11 and beyond. It was the only way I knew to cope but it didn't keep me from having a nervous breakdown. Their pain was all too fresh and familiar to me still living it out every day. Time can heal our wounds if we spend that time wisely. It's hard to believe its been 10 years.
In 10 years, I've used my God Box (Mac laptop) in many ways to reach out. Blogs, Facebook Pages, Emails, Skype all serve a great purpose but I will tell you, the biggest impact for me has been inviting others into my home and looking them in the eye and reaching out to hug them, especially my daughters and their friends. After 9/11, I longed for this, it was missing in my life. I made a concerted effort to become more loving in all ways and today I can easily say I feel loved. My friends tell me its that old saying 'what goes around comes around' and I agree. I'm in that sweet spot where the circle completes itself.
Looking back, they all feel like amazing years of growth. I learned to give love in ways I had blocked, and amazing things happened when I simply dared to love until it felt uncomfortable and unselfish. But on the other side of that discomfort, God delivered a Band-aid for my blessed wound that healed into a beautiful life.
So beautiful that I was blessed one day to see the actual paper in which Alan Jackson wrote his song onto 'When the world stop turning', the tear smears evident and the angst of emotion on scribbled paper. You never know how you fit into someone else's story. We are all apart of this 9/11 story.
I like to think of myself as someone who helps my clients create a place for these stories to play out. I certainly created the space you see above for our conversation to play out. Our homes are so important in this way and yet I feel like we spend more time thinking about their financial value rather than their emotional value.
I'm just saying that while we can spend time making sound decisions for our portfolio, lets not forget to create a home that we would invite others into if God forbid another tragedy happened. Let's not forget the peace we desired and the loving reverence we all felt for each other on this day. Because, I think it's the WHY to our question 'But why?'
Moor Alive Interiors invites you to our 'Creating Shalom in Your Home' Workshop Nov. 5th, Maitland Civic Center, 10-1p, where we talk about a new way to create your home with a wholehearted approach.
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